Bittersweet

Hey there... Haven't been in front of my compy for quite a while, hard to admit, but blackberry kept me away.. Haha okay I kinda need that piece of crap since no one replied my text messaging no more. How's life? Hope you all doin' good. Don't ask me. I've been the same, these past 6 months. Until this time, I haven't figured out what should I do beside softball, and school. Okay maybe I do a little things differently, such as going somewhere spontaniously.. I did that just to clear my mind, I did a little trip with my best friends. And guess what? When I got there, all the things in my mind, they're all gone. Really, I didn't even have a second to think about them. About love life and those piece of craps. Call me crazy, I admitted that I didn't believe in love anymore. I got hurt for so many times. This time, I will stand on my feet, held my head up high. If it's meant to be it will be. I've said it for a zillion times. I never thought I can get so bored easily. Even just for a month. When you thought he was "someone" and you spent alllllll the time with him, when you thought you feel comfy with him, suddenly... BOOM... He made a mistake, just a little one, you'll think, I don't wanna get hurt again this time. And then you take one step back, when at the end, you'll make a huge step (backwards). You want to forget, so you won't hate him at the end. I really hope somehow, at one point, someone will show me what I've been missing, why I should believe in love again, why I should get back into that "butterflies in my stomach" moment. I really hope. Okay, guess I do believe in love. My love for softball. That's all. I can get all the craziness out of my mind everytime I played, everytime I held my gloves, everytime I put on those shoes, everytime I stepped on the field.